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The Optimal Ceo

Dr. Brian Brown

The Optimal Ceo
35 MIN2019 FEB 18
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Welcome to the Optimal CEO Podcast. This is Dr. Brian Brown. Join me on today’s episode
where we’ll be discussing how I went from depressed and suicidal to naturally restored and
ended a 16 year relationship with psychiatric medications.

Thanks for joining me today. Last week, I explained how I discovered at age 45 that I’d been
dying every single night since age 5… and how that journey gave me a profound appreciation
for functional & integrative medicine.

I also discussed why a blended approach is the best approach to wellness and why many
wellness gurus are off-base when they tell you that their way is the only way because it’s the
availability of blended options that bring about wellness success in this complex system we call
the human body.

Today, I’m gonna to continue my story and tell you how I found a way to get off of psychiatric
medications after 16 years.

Let’s jump right in…

I’ve been practicing psychiatry since 1998.

I’ve treated children as young as age 5… adolescents… young adults… middle-age adults… and
senior adults.

In that time, I’ve treated thousands of patients who were not content with life.

If “happy” is defined as “feeling or showing contentment,” then I’ve met a lot of people who
were not content (not happy) with life in their present situation.

Depression and anxiety are rampant in the Western world, yet the only answer that traditional
medicine seems to have is in the form of developing the next “latest and greatest” magic pill.
I’ve actually been one of those “discontent . . . unhappy” people myself.

All my life, I had longed to become a doctor.

I had felt this calling since I was a young boy.

It’s all I’d ever dreamed of and all I ever talked about.

It’s what I had my sights set on.

I wanted to help others and was hardwired from birth to be an empathic, caring individual.

Also, in my mind, it was a way for me to find some happiness.

I developed a hardworking nature right from the start: I started mowing yards when I was nine
years old and started flipping burgers when I was fifteen years old.
I’ve done everything from changing oil and pumping gas, to patching flat tires, to driving a gas
truck, to unloading trucks at UPS.

I’m thankful for those experiences because they have gifted me with the work ethic and people
skills I have today.

Because of my hardworking nature, the academic rigors of my training were second nature to
me as evidenced by being a straight “A” student through my high school, undergraduate, and
graduate studies.

My story actually begins in the spring of 1997 when I was in my next-to-last year of professional

One of our lectures had just dismissed for a fifteen minute break in the middle of a four-hour

It was an unusually beautiful spring day, so I went outside to get some fresh air and enjoy the
tulips that were in full bloom.

I went to the third floor balcony that overlooked a park, the closest thing to nature near my
lecture hall.

I was right in the middle of my lifelong dream on that third floor balcony. . . but I wasn’t
happy; somehow, happiness had eluded me.

I would later realize that by this point, I had been struggling with depression for about two
years and that health professionals had the highest rates of suicide among all other professions.

As I stood there on the balcony, propped against the balcony railing and facing the street
below, I saw a dump truck speeding down the road in front of me.

As the truck approached, I had a flood of emotion as all of the blood rushed from my head.

I became dizzy andthe whole world around me spun out of control in a maze of vertigo.

My heart was racing, and I was overwhelmed by a nauseated feeling in the pit of my
stomach . . .

Yet, at the same time, I had a sense of immediate relief and heard a small voice whisper, “It’s
over now.”

It wasn’t a horrific voice. It was a peaceful voice.